What am I thinking of....

I often like to sit down,be alone in a house,with music and think...
Trying to blog a good piece of blog.

But lately all insipirations are nowhere in sight.
I especially like my May 2005 entries but I cant just blog like that anymore.

Stares blankly at the screen.

I guess I just have to put what's past behind.
Looking at the future,I only yearn to climb higher and higher.

Quite frankly, I do like my work place.
It may not be equiped with a cafe like dining area,state of the art computers and so on.
But Clara has been nice to me, entitling me some priviledges(so to say) and blah blah.

Though deep inside, I am still wary and cant help to put on my guard.
But this is the working world that we are talking about.
Be on your heels is important.

I refused to bow down to a poor man's fate.

Money doesnt spin my world and it doesnt comes in between you and me.
But I do recognized its importance that it plays in my life.
I must work (hard)for it and then use it to compensate what I am missing out as I worked for it.

The rule is dont work for money,make money work for you.
And this applies for many other things in life,I guess?

As such I make some of the things to be on my TO GET list.
They are not important to me at all.
But they shall mark my achievements.
Alot of you may have it already.
I am slow,I admit.
But they come in my every cents worth.

There is no point that I get something similar,has the same functions but slightly "lousier" for lower price of coz.
Since they are not impt to me and are purely 'wants' and 'trophies', they might as well be the best in market.

1)A good 5.0(at least) mega pixels Cyber shot.

-The pictures taken by me are so clear as though you are seeing tv le!Li hai ma?"

2)A good Ipod Mini.


-I still cant decide which colour I like better...you?

3)A good perfume.(I didnt buy coz I didnt know which I like.)

-There's alot of debates about this ad.Do you see 2 women?-_-


4)A new hp.
And I kinda fancy this one!
It kinda look like a mouse.


-Not him la.

Now lemme find.
I dunno what is the model coz I never pay attention to names.

I think it is this or something like this.


-It comes in pink,blue...colours.

Why I like it?
Finally there's a handphone that BREAK the codes.
Boring colours,go away!

Mobiles are very boring gadgets.
They should come in Ipod colours!
Those covers with pictures or multi colours are UGLY things though.


I am not a spendthrift.
I know specifically what is worth and what's not.
(Exclude some shopping impulses but I cut down on that already.)

And lastly with slightly more than sufficient money on hand, I can afford to give my family a good treat anytime I want.

And if there's any courses I wanna take up in the future,they shall come from my own pocket.
And of coz every other things.

And thus I have lil' envy for those people who has things that come a lil' too easy for them.
Coz they are rich.
For my friends who are rich,it's truely your fortune.
Dont worry, I ain't talking about you.
I am just passing my insensitive judgement to others that I see.
Facade is what we all see, isnt it?

Never with others.
What matters most is how my life is revolving.

Day after day, I had to keep reminding myself that the things I gotta do in order to make my life 'meaningful'.

I remembered clearly that I want to teach.
I want to end up in the career which all I see are the faces of angels and the true smile from the hearts.
Not now?
Not yet.
But when?
Just not now..yet.

I remembered clearly that I wanna learn to converse in the beautiful language of France.
Oh...Vous parler Francias?*weak translation,dont count on it!*
I guess I gotta delayed it till nearing end of the year or really only next.

I remembered clearly that I should have some Aerobics with Mingli??
Haha.
She did msg to ask if I play badminton this morning.
But I am a late Sunday bird.
Besides the last that I remembered playing was when I was much younger with my brothers at the carpark.
Those were the days when I still remembered seeing families playing there too.
Sigh...
Now the carpark is solely just a carpark.
Parked with cars and yet looks lonely too.

I remembered clearly that I wanna learn to make fine cuisines on my own.
I admit I dont cook well.
The only 'things' that I cooked lately are instant noodles and sometimes sphagetties.
(Did I spell that Italian noodle correctly?I always CANT SPELL THAT,I dunno why...)
Oh well...My parents,esp my dad, are chefs that I am always dead proud of.
Havent they left me any genes that's associated with c-o-o-king?
Non!
I refused to believe so.
I WILL LEARN how to cook Sweet & Sour pork;)

And yea,speaking of which...I remembered too that I figured impossible is really nothing.
It's just the matter of you want to do it or not.
And I guess it applies to everything in life?
For instance, it's not the matter of you can or cannot forget someone.
It's really the matter you want or not?
Of coz the affairs of heart are much complicated.
If we can control how we feel all the time, living wouldnt be so beautiful.
=)

Yes,yes.
I remembered that I wanna do some good deeds like donating blood, volunteering, fostering a kid etc.
Not for the sake of accumulating karma though.
I dunno how karma works anyway.
It is always in dramas that the baddies get their retribution.
=/
Hmm....So?
I guess other than the very first one, the rest comes when I am fully capable of managing my time.
How to have time for work,friends,family,myself(& you) equally.
Of coz fostering a kid comes after my finances are all stable.

And...
I want a goldie?
Sob...when will I have a house big enough to house a G.Retriver?

Anyway...anyway...anyway.

What I plan to achieve may already long be done by many others.
I am so way behind.

But...



































Do you think I give a damn?